"My fairytale" - That is the name of my blog. I lie. My life is far from a fairytale story, there is no princess life for me or living happily ever after with my prince. To be honest, it is far from that. Why do the people from the film industry fill us up with hope that our love is going to be perfect and easy, love is not like what we see in 'The Notebook' or any of the Walt Disney films. So.. What is love? There is no right answer, everyone has different opinions and views. I don't know what love is.

Although, I believe Iam in love with him right now. He is my best friends/boyfriend. I can honestly say that I love him.. I can picture us still being together in a few years time.. Going on holiday, living in a wee scrotty flat together.. I can see all that. But I don't know if it is right.. He does make me happy but also makes me unhappy. He cheated on me a while back and it has never been the same since.. We would hardly ever argue, talk all the time, we were pretty much inseperable.. Ever since he broke my trust, we argue alot, Iam worried everytime he goes up town, I sometimes even get jealous when he talks to girls online :( .. I don't want it to be like that anymore. I'm painting him to be a not so nice person but he his. When we are together, its great. We have such a laugh.. Sounds cheesy but it is perfect. When we argue.. It is pretty bad, he says some horrible things and things get blown out of proportion. I love him though, maybe I'm just scared of him hurting me again or loosing him? I don't know.

I have no idea why Iam writing this, maybe it will be usefull someday. I can look back and see my feelings.

He is going up town again tonight.